hopeful

what makes a love story romantic is its state of unattainability. having heard a cliche to that effect, i personally can agree to that statement. so sad, but true.

we all seem to want what we don't have. we romanticize having what we can't have. we long for the things that are unreachable and far beyond our grasp.

then, when we do have them : reach our dreams, realize our fantasies, or have the love of our life, they suddenly loose their luster. and what do you know, more often than not, we take for granted the things that we readily have, the people that are there beside us, the facts that are right under our noses to see.

typical human nature.

to look without seeing.. listen without hearing.. perceive without feeling..

so it goes on~

King of Pop's Demise

first news of the day, as i opened dad's laptop. ito agad bumulaga sa akin : "Michael Jackson, the 'King of Pop', dies at 50".

good thing i've had breakfast na, otherwise, nawalan na naman ako ng gana.

it's sad..

but i've always wondered what it would be like if someone very famous, such as the king of pop himself, dies. i actually expected a circus! i'm disappointed (i mean no disrespect here!) but there is none!

another one bites the dust.. a cliche.. but the truth! the world is mourning this loss,indeed! (weird, i have this nagging feeling that someone might actually succumb to death because of his passing.. i hope not..)

this is my farewell to the king of pop.. at 50, he has served his purpose. may he rest in peace.. ~.~

Touchy or.. Sweetie!?

hindi ako ang tipo who would whisper sweet-nothings to my special someone (not that I have one now!) but being a sensual person, touchy ako, with almost everybody in general (as in FC : feeling close! XD)

like for instance, I would more likely pat someone on the shoulder or offer my cheek to be kissed in greeting than simply smile and say "hi". I guess, I'm more of the hugs and kisses type..

so that's what a friend and I were discussing a couple of days ago, who was, in my own standard, very sweet and overly malambing.. and yes, typically bolero!

oh, he would always deny the third adjective!

my belief : a guy who doesn't know how to make bola, is infact, so full of himself! (no offense men! that is just my own biased opinion! XD)

well, as far as I see it, there's nothing wrong naman with being a bolero, or making bola!

as long as, boys : don't over do it. and girls : always weigh and choose best whatever you want to believe! (applicable vice versa)

heck! this is a free country. everyone can do what they want. (which is pretty much prevalent these days!)

speaking for myself, its alright na bolahin ka, as long as you know it!

now, is there such thing as "consentual panloloko"?

uhh.. in my own twisted mind : OO!

fine! gullible na kung gullible. hindi mo rin naman malalaman ang isang bagay without experiencing it.

so, kung magpadala man ako, that's because I choose to and not ever, because magaling kang magdala. maaring marunong ka! (one must always be given credit for something) and sure, sumabay nga ako dahil gusto ko, then.. maybe even made you believe otherwise..

sino ngayon ang manloloko!?.. at, nagpapaloko!?! ~~~peace out! XD

Champorado, anyone!?

I made some on the first day Pop went to Iloilo at wala na naman akong connection on the web since he brought the laptop with him.

So, sa sobrang kawalan ng magawa, walang maisip gawin, at walang ginagawa (other than eat and sleep!) I got tempted into making that champorado that I so desperately wanted to learn! And so, after 23years, I braved myself out into making some!XD

uhmmm! Mukhang passable naman..

The consistency of the rice was just right. But the color of the finished product was a bit off. Perhaps a shade lighter than it should be, a rich, chocolate-deep brown. Mine was just brown! (ohh-kay! perhaps that's two shades lighter, maybe even three!) But atleast, edible naman siya!

There, I satisfied my craving for champorado, my very own! I've been meaning to learn how to make it, just the way Mum used to make it for us!

I swear, I could still remember the taste! Rich, cocoa-flavor made creamier with milk.. I wanted that! But ofcourse, I did not have the benefit of her instructions in making my first homemade-champorado. I only had the basics and my not-so-confident instincts!

The result : right consistency rice, pale colored champorado. But, champorado nonethemore! XD

Gee! Boredom nga naman, makes one think and do crazy stuff!

Paano ba naman kasi, Im up at 0630H to make breakfast. By 0730H I'm back in bed to sleep, ulet! Then I get bored by 0900H, maliligo. Afterwhich, tatamarin maghintay matuyo ang buhok, babalik ulet sa bed! Maalimpungatan at quarter to 12 (good! just in time for lunch) sleepy pa rin ako by this time but hunger makes me drag myself off of bed (grudgingly!) with hair still slightly wet! Ayus! Hilo sa gutom at lamig ng ulo!

Habang naglu-lunch, nagiisip na ako ng kung anong masarap kainin for merienda. (Yon na nga! Champorado on the 1st day, grilled pandeleche on the 2nd ; yeah as in : inihaw na tinapay! And pizza on the 3rd!)

1230H, nakahilata na ulet ako. Eh kasi nanan ang init + super busog feeling = sleepy(ness). So, sleep it is! After 2hours, gigising after makadama ng gutom. Gagawa ng snack, and by 1545H, Im enjoying my very own champorado! **hayop** :P

**Disclaimer : ang inihaw na tinapay at pizza na snack, hindi na akin yon. Binili na lang. Dehins na ako nangahas magluto ulet! ~.~

BUSTED

Ayus! This kid came on to me, asking for suggestions on how he can make sorry effectively to a girl he offended..

uhh.. Should I be flattered!? Should I shrug it off!? Should I laugh my bootylicious butt off?! (har har)

There I did it!
I also shared my good-for-nothing-words of wisdom to him..

Situation : na-offend ni boy si girl when he said she's maarte (way maarte!) and whaddya know, he didn't really mean what he said!

Assessment : I think this is so typical of boys. To say things without really meaning them (generally speaking ha!) And this boy in particular did just that,and worse, offended the girl.

So thus starts his dilemma. Paano siya magsosorry ngayon?!

I say "it's too late to apologize, its too late.." (Yes, kinanta ko na XD)

Told him, clearly, na over sa pangungulet niya yong girl kaya ayon.. The way I see it, he could keep on trying to apologize but that's as far as he can go.

Well, he went on further pa pala, to ask me (though, by this time nagtataka na ako ba't ako ang tinatanong niya.. honest!) What do girls usually like (in my opinion daw since babae nga ako) na gawin ng mga boys for them to be forgiven?

How does one woe a girl ba?! In a way I can't relate to this. Its not like I woe girls! I woe guys! Dang!

At a loss : uhh.. I believe not all girls are the same, nor do they have the same preferences!

"Eh, medyo pareho nga kayo, matapang.. strong." (may banat na ganun?! hmmph! "suplada" yata ibig sabihin ng batang to ah!)

Now, I beg to differ.. For one thing, I'm not matapang! I cringe at the sight of needle na tinutusok sa patient! (well, unless its done to me, but that's beside the point! I digress).. I don't believe myself to be strong! I told him so, to point the fact that I'm not like the other girl! Furthermore, if a boy offended me (or anyone for that matter) they're as good as dead to me..

So, with all due respect, I think wala na ngang magagawa ang batang ito..

What's done is done.

Well, he could just let it be, and perhaps think of his situation this way : if he was aiming to get the girls attention, he surely got it! (though, not in the most favorable way). He could also delude himself into thinking that atleast, the girl cared enough for his opinion of her to get mad about what he so rashly said to her. And if it were true, the girl would eventually miss him so much that siya mismo ang gagawa ng paraan to get in touch with the boy. If not, then wala ng magagawa si boy, kasalanan niya rin naman! It all goes down to that!

Geez! Boys nga naman... ~.~

lovenotes

Grabe! Tatlo ka adlaw wala internet! (Sa pag-anu mo nga!) Tingala man ko nga naka survive ko kag! Baw maayu na lang gani kay na activate liwat and internet connection sa mobile ko. Maskin papanu, konektado gihapon ah. Pero siempre, daw wala lang man gihapon pulos. Dugangan pa guid dabe nga ganiloko ang connection sang iMessenger! Grrrrr

Te, medyo drag.. Nah! Drag gid ya akon weekend. Husto eh! Tapos ko basa duwa ka paperback novels nga gin hagilap ko pa sa ibabaw kung din naka stack ang sankatutak nga mga libro kag magazines sang tiya ko nga laon (who, thank the good Lord, wala dire subong sa Pinas! XD).. I doubt, though, kung ari siya dire kung maka read ko books niya, let alone saka upstairs (which is practically her den) kag magpang halungkat balasahon.. I doubt I'll even stay long sa balay ni lola!

Pero ari ako dire subong.. May tatlo na ka bulan! (holy crap! 3 months?!)

Ayus! I've been promoted to a complete laggard!

Kag anu ang padulungan ko sini!? Wala gid ko namang-an!

Laggard gani!

Kundi, amo na to ang natabo! Umpisa sang friday pagpuli ni papa sa Iloilo dala ang laptop.. and my access to the net! Stuck with no other option to pass my time with..

Pwedi man ko mag watch tv.. (but I'd rather not).. So I opted to read books.. (entertained me for a while then it depressed me..)

Took a trip down memory lane.. Ayus! Buhi pa mga journals ko.. (dating as far back as grade-school)

Oh-kay! Pero siempre wala ko na gin salom ang amo to ka dalum/kadugay na nga mga tini-un! (Dalming na gid man to ya.. I may be bored out of my wits but di man ko muna ka addict ah! Siguro ~.~)

So padayun ang pagpamalandong..

What I found!? More reason to be nostalgic, which is actually weird since I'm home and feeling homesick shouldn't be.. (ambot lang)

"What's too painful to remember, ain't so easy to forget.." (Linya sa isa ka kanta ni B. Striesand)

".. wondering if there is a chance for me to recover my losses, or do I just let things be and take whatever there is left to salvage.. " (sapat!)

Soon actions will be taken.. for plans that took a long time in the making.. Dues will be paid.. Dreams will be realized.. Priorities set straight..

Big words.. Small world.. Endless possibilities! (Iron.. maiden! XD)
I''ll let this die a pre-mature death..

muni-muni

Galing akong Iloilo kahapon.. I was there over the weekend.. Attended that fiesta kela Hudas.. Fun! After the food, inuman naman at Bourbon's! Ofcourse no booze for me.. Didn't need 'em when mas lalong pa yata ako sa mga kasama ko.. Tipped two shot glasses of tequila! One ay na spill pa sa isang colleague ni ate Apes who happen to be super pa-cute! No offense, cute naman talaga siya, but not that cute! XD

Hanggang 3am ang sayawan, nagmistulang private party dahil kame-kame na lang yong natira after the power blackout around 1am.. (Kung sino-sino man ang "kame-kame" na yun, ayoko nang i-elaborate)

After that night, balik ako sa pagtatago sa bahay.. Tinamad-mode! Kasi naman it was raining, and how I detest rains.. Bum ako sa bahay for the weekend.. Fine lang..

June1 : I got na my passport! Iron! Pwedi na akong maglayag sa kung saan! Really, chance ko na to.. Though, I haven't made up my mind yet on where ko gustong pumunta.. I hope by September, mas maliwanag na ang lahat! XD