timeout

ayos! i finally took the time to sit back, relax and reflect some.
napuna ko, mahigit kalahating taon na pala ang nakalipas sa 2010.
anu na nga bang pinag-gagawa ko sa buhay ko?!

kailangan mag buntong-hininga.

wala masyado.

may trabaho ako. to which i keep myself busy with, most of the time.
so far, enjoy naman.
i'm earning my keep. and as much as possible, i try to live by my means.
lahat naka budget.
managing my finances serves me well. i enjoy doing that, sa totoo lang.
i get to learn control and discipline.
not bad, when you're living alone at wala ka talagang maaasahan but yourself!

there, i'm romanticizing my being independent!
needless to say, masaya ako sa estado ng buhay ko ngayon.
no over-sized responsibility to another being, but to myself.
no committment to anyone. and heck, i'm more likely to commit myself to my work that to another person.

sure, pwedi naman yon.

but in retrospect, i'm wondering now if i'm beginning to become self-centered..

diyan, di ako sure.
hindi naman siguro.

i'm still in a path to chasing liberty.
so far, the costs are reasonable naman. yata?!

naisip ko lang kasi, the best things in life are free.
but the greater ones, they come with a price!

now, living my life as i see fit.

good thing, i still can afford to splurge XD

Home-Alone

I woke up with a sudden burst of awareness.. The were birds singing.. For a m0ment, i thought i was back h0me.
But i wasn't.
Mem0ries of a distant past assailed my thoughts all at once.
I was al0ne.
It dawned on me, the realizati0n that there is n0 one here but me.
Do i feel lonely?
I honestly don't kn0w!
Am i in a state of denial?
I think n0t.
I accept, and in truth, relish the idea of being by myself. I still find it a luxury to be able to keep to myself when it suits my purpose.
So, i suppose i'm n0t lonely, n0t yet atleast.
Alone, i would reflect on mem0ries that beg to be remembered. And there is always s0mething to remember. Everything in my childh0od.
Everything back h0me.
Every encounter that molded me into what i am n0w.
I know.. I'm being sentimental. But, I have no cause to argue with myself on this..
Peace!