Count Your Blessings!

Count your blessings instead of your crosses;
Count your gains instead of your losses.

Count your joys instead of your woes;
Count your friends instead of your foes.

Count your smiles instead of your tears;
Count your courage instead of your fears.

Count your full years instead of your lean;
Count your kind deeds instead of your mean.

Count your health instead your wealth;
Love your neighbor as much as youself.

From an unknown author of a magazine i had the f0rtune of finding stuck at a magazine rack of the salon i visited to have my feet done. The message came across as : honga pala, wala pa akong new year's resolution for 2010! Not that i've ever obsserved a strict one in the years passed. So here goes. Maybe i sh0uld start n0w. . To count my blessings that is :p

soul searching

i stare blankly at the source of light
that cast haunted shadows i so detest in the dark..

i taste the bitterness of betrayal again
like acid it burns at me with gnawing pain..

i swear you will never redeem what you have lost
nor will i gain what i have decided to let go..

die now, for to me you are dead
die, and in memory you shall be buried..

never to be forgotten, never to be forgiven
your soul will forever cry for salvation in vain..

be in good graces or suffer my wrath
i'll carry this grudge to my grave, you have chosen your path..

you will burn in hell with me,
with not a chance of escape,
not even in purgatory

~aco4th

Estranged Lover

I seek your likeness in the sea of faces i meet everyday.

Where, oh where are you, my lover?
Why are we estranged?

I try so hard to recapture your essence.
I dream of your being at night.
I wallow in lonliness of you absence.
I curse at Fate for my sad plight.

I desire not another.
Indeed, i have no use for any other.
Charmed and chained.
I remain yours, unchanged.

Why then?

That : there are some, destined to fall in love, but could never be lovers.
And : there are those, destined to be lovers, but could never fall in love.

Now, i long for the lover i once had.
To fall in love with, i delude myself not!
I ask only to be with him again.
To see for myself, that he suffered as much as i, only more pained!

~aco4th

burning bridges

its disgusting, your undeniably lame promises.
they serve no purpose, nor justify excuses.

your meanness cannot define what goodness you may have done
i know you not to be the devil, but your cruelty is second to none

i was a fool to believe what you've falsely shown.
i would never have, had i known.
fie on you for making-believe.
shame on me, for i believed!

i laugh at my foolishness and cry for it was unfair
i curse at your wickedness, how could you lie with such flair

burning bridges.. i'm through with your lies..
you leave me no choice.. i must do this or [die!?]

~aco4th

morbid thoughts

for the happiness he swiftly claimed.
my life, has it all been a dream?

now, my eyes have no more tears left to cry..
my lips are pursed, can no longer smile.

all around me, it is silence i hear.
deafening..
detrimental of the chaos i feel.

i ward them off with my hands..
willing them to go away..
what i see with my eyes..
memories echo in my mind..

i laugh without humor.
i hurt, yet now, devoid of pain.

there's not a star from what little patch of heaven i can see through where i've lain..

darkness will engulf me soon.
inevitable.
undeniable.
taking me to eternal oblivion..
~aco4th