I thought i was ready to take on a new something. Hindi pa rin pala. "and the thing that freaks me out, is that i'll always be in doubt.." (ANIMAL INSTINCT - CRANBERRIES)
I can't even seem to think passed that notion right now. Bigla na lang, nasasakal ako ng pag-aalinlangan! I take a step forward only to be pulled 10 steps back.
My only consolation in this is : at least, i'm not trying to deny the fact, that, i'm scared shit! Scared of committing myself into a relationship. Scared of the responsibility it entails. Scared of losing myself again, when for 24years, i'm still searching for me!
Earlier this year, i promised to say "yes" to the first guy who would dare court me. (which sounds like a desperate ultimatum, n0w that i think of it). In the end, i just gave chances, but could never say "yes".
Naduduwag ako! Di pa rin pala ako ready. Clearly, there are a lot of ways to break somebody's heart, none of them : easy..
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aw aw aw.. poor guy...
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